Finding Yourself All Over Again

Hey everyone!! Happy Wednesday!

It’s been a while since I’ve last seen you! But that was entirely my fault. I went into hustle mode and I didn’t exactly have time to sit down and blog about it. But what’s done is done and here I am! Sorry I neglected you, my internet friends. I missed you and I definitely didn’t forget about you.

So in case you don’t know, I actually have interests outside of my Geek Girl persona. (SAY WHAAT?!) I know, right? Who does that? Well, actually, a lot of people do. And I say it’s time we start acknowledging that it’s NORMAL to be a well rounded person.

I’ve said it multiple times in this blog, but I’ll say it again. I love to dance. I started dancing when I was 12-years-old. My dad was a ballroom dance instructor and he put my sister and I in classes. We took the generic studio classes – ballet, jazz, tap, hip hop. At first I was trying to rebel against the dance life because most of my family did it and I wanted to be different. But in jr. high when I joined the dance team, I realized dance was a passion of mine.

I continued to dance all throughout high school and during my freshman year of college. But after that, I stopped. It was sad. Life got in the way and I couldn’t find time to take class anymore. Plus, the SoCal dance scene was absolute craziness. It was this whole world I’ve never seen and it was intimidating as fck. These hip hop dancers were incredible to watch and I just felt like I wasn’t good enough to train with them. I also felt insignificant because I never danced on a team before. I was just that lone, solo dancer that watched from afar… hoping and wishing someday that can be me…

Okay. I’m totally exaggerating. But my point is I then began to admire the dance community from a distance rather than be in it.

That all changed about 2 months ago when I applied to be a staff for Boogiezone.

Interviewing Ellen Kim from Movement Lifestyle

Interviewing Ellen Kim from Movement Lifestyle

Boogiezone is this wonderful dance community that bridges the industry and community together to train under one roof. Not only does it provide a healthy environment to learn in, it provides numerous opportunities to grow and challenge yourself.

I got an email that they were hiring staff for different locations and I decided, why the hell not. I was looking for an internship and this felt like the right one. To my surprise, I got an email from the brainchild himself, Elm, a day later asking for a phone interview. And it’s all history from there…

Erm.. well… 2 months of history. Whatever, don’t judge me.

This experience so far has been amazing. I can’t even find the words to describe how confident I feel again. This past weekend was our summer intensive, Boogiezone University. It was 3 days of hard fcking WORK! We had classes all day and as staff, it was our job to pump up the classes and make sure the choreographer’s and students’ experience was one they wouldn’t forget.

Anthony Lee, Culture Shock LA Director

Anthony Lee, Culture Shock LA Director

My primary job all weekend was to interview the choreographers. Now, I’m no stranger to interviewing. We do it every week for community class. But we had about 50 instructors altogether. I did about 85% of those interviews. I suck at math, but you can pretty much get the idea that I conducted a bunch of interviews back to back.

It was hard, but I felt like I finally mattered.

Di Moon Zhang from I.aM.Me, ABDC's Season 6 Champions

Di Moon Zhang from I.aM.Me, ABDC’s Season 6 Champions

Does that make sense? Sit tight, I’m about to get all philosophical up in here.

For the past year, I was in a rut. I felt like a failure, I felt like I couldn’t make anyone happy or proud, I felt like I had nobody by my side and it was terrible. I felt like no matter what I did, it was and will always be wrong.

Now I know what you’re thinking. This mentality is whack. First of all… hell yeah it is! Second of all, I went through this rut because of the people I was surrounded by. You know that saying that if you surround yourself with positive people who believe in you, you will always do well? Well it was exactly the opposite. I surrounded myself with people who doubted me and never believed that I could accomplish anything. I knew I had to take a stand and make a change if I wanted to be happy again.

Now this is gonna get super corny but Boogiezone is the reason I’m back on my feet. There’s other factors too, but Boogiezone is a big factor. Just so you know, I entered this journey alone but I met so many wonderful people that I can consider dear friends of mine. I never would have imagined myself interviewing some of my favorite choreographers, let alone meeting them or taking their class. I am so incredibly grateful and blessed to have been able to do this. Seriously, thank you Elm for everything. Thank you for believing in me and thank you for allowing me to wreck havoc on your Youtube channel. Shit’s about to get real loud up in here.

Arnel Calvario, Kaba Modern Founder

Arnel Calvario, Kaba Modern Founder

I could go on and on about what Boogiezone means to me, but I’ll tie it back to one of my many “Awesome Advice” posts. If you’re unhappy, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Please. We only have so much time to live on this earth. We can’t be wasting days just feeling sorry for ourselves. If you’re in a shitty job, if you’re in a shitty relationship, if you have shitty friends, make that change and make the choice to be happy today. There will always be outside factors you can’t control, but YOU have the power to change everything. You have the power to change your attitude. You have the power to change your life.

So do it. I encourage you. You’ll be so much happier, I promise.

I titled this post “Finding Yourself All Over Again” because I felt like I lost myself when I was in that rut. My daily routine was all mechanic and I was just going through the motions. I lost my purpose. But I found it again and I couldn’t be happier.

And I’m just happy that people like Ellen Kim or Arnel Calvario noticed that. I really must be doing something good in my life!

So let’s all find our purpose again. Let’s find ourselves through this hot mess we call life.

-Ally

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Day 16: Another Pic of Yourself/Life Update

Hey guys! Happy Friday!

So I have no idea why this blog challenge insists on posting so many damn pictures. I mean, where the hell is the “challenge” in that? So I’m gonna make it more interesting and just rant about how I am today. 😀

Well… I hope that’s interesting to you. 😛

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TA-DA! Itsaaa me. And Miku! I was planning on seriously doing a selfie but Miku jumped in the picture and I couldn’t turn my best friend down! I mean, look how cute she is!

I can’t believe I’m over halfway done with this 30 day blog challenge. I meant to note that in yesterday’s post, buuuut I forgot. Oops.

I really love doing these challenges because it’s making me work towards something. Even though at the end of 30 days nothing will physically happen, I’m still going to be super proud of myself for sticking it out and accomplishing something… even if it is just writing blog posts.

Anyways, I had a pretty good week! In literally just one week, I rewatched the first season of Legend of Korra AND I started and am caught up with Attack on Titan. Yeah… I just have a lot more time on my hands now that I’m single. So uh… if you wanna hang out with me… let me know… I need human interaction, damnit.

First of all, KORRA! Ah, need I say more?! Watching it gave me the feels all over again. It’s such an AMAZING series and the fact that it’s on cable television from a big network like Nickelodeon just never ceases to amaze me. The Avatar and Korra series are seriously Nickelodeon’s prized jewels. There’s no other show on that network that even COMPETES with the level of content, characters, and fight sequences like these shows do. Honestly, the Avatar trilogy is probably what’s keeping Nickelodeon from dying out. Oh and the Kids’ Choice Awards too, I guess.

Btw, my current OTP is Korra and Mako. And in case you were wondering… hell yeah, I’m gonna be looking up some dirty fanfiction. You know how I do.

Now onto Attack on Titan. Can I just say I’ve officially been mindfcked at least 10 times watching this show?! And there’s only 16 episodes out! And by mindfcked I don’t mean that the storyline is hard to follow, I just mean that this show is just beyond epic. EVERYTHING from the character development, the artwork, the music, the plot, etc. This shit is TOP NOTCH. And I honestly haven’t been keeping up with any recent anime, so I really lucked out on this one. Attack on Titan was like the talk of the town at this year’s Anime Expo, so I decided to see what the fuss was about. Sure enough, I was not let down. If you’re looking to get into anime or if you need a new anime to watch, I definitely, DEFINITELY recommend this one. You won’t be disappointed. I seriously stayed up til 5 in the morning two nights in a row just watching episode after episode. It’s THAT good.

Other than that, I’ve just been doing my usual routine. Staffing at Boogiezone has proven to be the best remedy for me, as well as a great stepping stone. In case you don’t know, I currently intern and staff for Boogiezone Utopia in Torrance, CA. It’s more than just a dance studio… it’s really a dance community where passionate people can mingle and train together. I love hosting the community classes. It’s been such an honor getting to meet and take class from some of the best choreographers. And the best part is that I get to interview them at the end! Well what do ya know… my journalism skills just came in handy!

The best part of staffing/interning at Boogiezone is that I truly get to do what I love, in an industry that I’m striving to be apart of. It’s such a win-win situation for me. Plus, I’ve met so many awesome people so far. I’m really starting to feel like my life is going somewhere special.

The last thing that I’ve been doing is that I recently got back on that work out grind and healthy eating. Let me tell ya, this is proving to NOT be an easy task. I mean, working out is fun, but eating healthy is just so difficult for me! I don’t know why! Like, I’ll make good choices sometimes, and then all of a sudden there’s a bag of hot cheetos. Like wtf?! Where did that come from? Oh yeah, your inner fat kid just insisted on stopping by that 7-11 to buy that. Damnit.

Again, in case you’re wondering, I don’t go to the gym. I work out at home. 🙂 I watch Cassey Ho’s channel “Blogilates.” She’s an amazing Youtube fitness guru and I highly suggest you watch some of her stuff. She will destroy you.

But then you’ll be so hot and sexy afterwards, so it’s ok to get destroyed! ❤

And that’s about all I did this week. I’m going to a Disney audition tomorrow morning so I’m going to TRY not to stay up all night watching anime or Youtube videos. The keyword is TRY.

I’ll have that Ryan Higa vlog up soon on my Youtube channel, I promise! I’ve just been really distracted with Legend of Korra and Attack on Titan. Lol. Oops.

Oh and I’m really serious about waiting outside the Anaheim Convention Center this weekend to find some Youtubers at VidCon. Soo, feel free to join me! 😉

-Alice